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Last Day!

angelbsworld — Thu, 12 Aug 2010 23:54:00 +0000

I honestly cannot believe that six weeks went by so fast. I entered this program so scared of adventuring a new life. Now, I am leaving to return stronger than ever. I have worked so hard. I experienced so many late night studies over the course of these weeks. I have yet to receive my proper amount of sleep since the first week. I really need this break. I know that if I accomplished this, I am ready for the Fall semester. There were so many times where I just wanted to give up, but I hung in there. My family looks at me to be the one to be successful. My parents are very successful, but none of my siblings are. I know that I have a lot on my plate with so many expectations from everybody. I just need to stay focused. I have my plan for the Fall. I am going to keep my study habits the same, maybe even a little bit longer. When professors have office hours, I will attend if I need help, or even to get advice. I also want a personal tutor for math. I had Intermediate Algebra during the summer program. I totally flunked that class. Office hours did not help much, and neither did tutoring. I need a one on one tutor, not one tutor for the whole class at the same time. I am still a little scared about my return. I really hope my professor speaks up for me, I really tried hard. If Dr. Wright can see that, then I am in good shape. I am really shocked at my grade for my final paper. I never thought I would be able to get an A on one of my professor’s papers. I must say, the writing process helped me out tremendously! I never used the writing process in high school. When I came to college for this summer program, I had no idea that we would be using it here. I am so grateful that my professor took the time to teach us and encourage us during these weeks. There were so many times where I felt like throwing in the towel. However, he was always there to help me and encourage me to keep on going. So for that, I thank you Dr. Martin.

angelbsworld — Wed, 11 Aug 2010 23:37:52 +0000

It’s that time of year again. When you get a break from school for a little bit, then return. I always seem to get too laxed when I know a break is shortly coming. I need to break out of this habit. All my years of high school, I experienced this problem. I had it the worst in my senior year of high school. During my senior year,the seniors were treated like royalty. We felt as though we ran the school. There were so many people who looked up to us. The more workloads I received, the less I put my all into them. My high school teachers referred to that at “Senioritis”. Senioritis is when you think that just because you are a senior, the workload is supposed to stop. Well I feel like I have Senioritis as a freshman. I know that I only have two days left, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mind off of my vacation. It seems like we are getting the most work towards the end. I know I have to put aside everything else and stay focused on my work. I have been trying to do that lately, but I really have not been succeeding. Tomorrow, I am not turning my phone on until I am complete all my work. I have one final tomorrow, and the other one is Friday. I am not too ready for my math final. I honestly do not think you can study for a math final. You either know it or you don’t. I cannot cram. Hopefully my good grades in all of my other classes can hold up my GPA. I am kind of confident in my return for the Fall now. I just have to knock out this Composition 1 final, and I will be just fine. I want to prove to my professor that I have learned the new style of writing. I am not accepting anything less than a B. I will see how this goes. Wish me luck.

The Last Tuesday

angelbsworld — Tue, 10 Aug 2010 23:07:42 +0000

Today was a weird day for me. The worst scare of my life happen to me today. Monday by class time, my composition paper was due. I worked on my paper really hard over the weekend, just tweaking things up. Sunday night, I decided to make my last few changes, but did not e-mail it to my professor because I wanted to make sure I did not have any errors. I am pretty sure that I saved my revisions. When I tried open my file about 7:30 Monday morning, it was nowhere in sight. Class starts at 9:30 am. Here I am, not dressed, trying to send my paper, and it is not there. I had to rewrite my paper all over from the draft that I had. I was crying so badly. I was upset because everything that I had on my draft was not up to date. I made so many revisions since my draft. I had to submit something. This was really tearing me up because I worked so hard, and this grade can make or break our grade in that class. Long story short, today in class my professor seemed so upset. One of my fellow classmates plagiarized a paragraph from his paper. My body went cold. I knew that I rushed the whole assignment that morning, and I knew that I used an excerpt from his paper for sources. I looked at the file on my Ipod, and I did the same exact thing he was talking about during his lecture. The whole entire class, I was shaking in my boots. My professor was going to the board of directors, and the student would not be able to come back in the Fall. So after class, I went to my professor scared as ever. I told him that I knew it was me, but I did not do it intentionally. I began to tell him what happened and he told me that it was not me. He hadn’t even read my paper yet. He went on by telling me to redo my paper, and resubmit it, he would not even look at what I sent him. I wanted to hug him so tight. It always pays to show your professor that you are a hard worker during the school year, and to also stay in contact with them. Today was the worst scare that I have ever experienced in my life. I am so grateful for a kind-hearted professor.

The Countdown!

angelbsworld — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 23:41:55 +0000

There are only four days left, and I am complete the summer portion of college. I have survived so far, I am not going to give up now. I have come too far. I am honestly scared for my Composition paper to get graded. I did not have any peer reviews, so I had to do the whole process by myself. I’m excited about going home and going on vacation. However, I am nervous about getting my e-mail stating whether I can come back. Hopefully all my hard work and dedication payed off. I have been missing my family so much. It’s like the workload is getting to become a greater quantity, because it is so close to the end. I really hope that I can attend Bloomsburg in the Fall. Only time will tell!

What a Day

angelbsworld — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 02:39:30 +0000

Today was so hectic for me! I had to finish up my paper for my Composition 1 class. I was experiencing writer’s block to the fullest. I could not think of anything to say. This assigned paper has been giving me headaches since I first received the assignment. Normally, I can flow with my writings, but this paper had me stuck. I felt like a car in quick sand. This paper is worth the most, and I am not confident at all about it. I am so scared for my professor to grade it. Hopefully, I get a good grade so that I can be able to come back in the Fall. I overslept this morning. My first class is at 9:30 am, and I woke up at 9:20. I had ten minutes to get to class. Good thing I was dressed at breakfast this morning. I would have been in a world of trouble if I was not. I could not do my hair though. I went to class looking like a rag doll. Nevertheless, I made it, at 9:30 on the nose. I have been so sleepy lately with these work loads. I cannot wait for the weekend to come so I can rest.

Picnic

angelbsworld — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 01:57:37 +0000

Today, the Act101 program had to attend a picnic. The picnic took place at the town park. The town mayor was there. I never knew he was so young. I expected him to be an older guy. The picnic was nice, except for the bugs. There were bugs everywhere. I have a phobia of bugs. I hate all types of bugs, no matter if they bite or just crawl. Bugs kept flying all over me. I felt so itchy. I could not really enjoy myself like how I wanted to. I never saw so many bugs at one time in my whole life. It was a spider in my friend’s cup. When I saw that spider in her cup, I could not function anymore. I had to leave. I was so happy when the first bus came. I hopped right on that bus. As soon as I reached the campus, I jetted upstairs to get a shower. I felt so refreshed after my shower. I totally forgot about blogging today, I am going to be honest. I have been so occupied with other things. I honestly think that the mandatory picnic was a waste of time. I could have been working on my paper, or doing my math homework. Instead, I had to attend.

Tuesday..

angelbsworld — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 22:51:17 +0000

Today I felt so drained. It has been such a hassle trying to stay up to date with everything. I now see how college life comes with so many responsibilities. I did not go to sleep until 3 am. I was up brainstorming, trying to figure out how to start my paper. I still have not been able to figure something out. It seems like this week is going by so fast, maybe because I am dreading Thursday. Tomorrow is Wednesday already! I have to get myself together. I cannot afford to fail another paper. This paper is worth 40 percent of my final grade. I already have a B in Composition class, if I fail this paper, that can drop me down to a D. If I fail this paper, I will not be able to return to Bloomsburg in the Fall. I am really struggling with this paper. I do not know where to begin. Dr. Martin gave us an example paper to look at. I loved the example paper.I want to use that same structure for my paper, the thing is, I do not want him to think that I am plagiarizing. Plagiarizing is so crucial in college. I am still working on citing everything that is not common knowledge. This is going to be a long, hard week. I am going to need tons of coffee!

Mondays

angelbsworld — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 23:31:40 +0000

Boy I how i dread Mondays. It seems like Mondays are the worst days of the week. After a fun filled weekend, Mondays are right there staring you in the face. Today I was so sleepy, however, I managed well.I went to sleep at 3:00 in the morning, knowing that I had to be in breakfast by 7:30 am. Classes went smooth although I was sleepy. I participated to the best of my ability in Intermediate Algebra class today. I even volunteered to go in front of the class to do a problem on the board. Math class actually went by so fast to me today. It went by fast mainly because I did not have my mind on the time. I was so engaged, that I forgot all about the time. When I went to Composition class, I was pumped to get the day over. As I entered the classroom, I knew that I had to do some deep breathing. I began to get annoyed because there are a lot of immature people. I know that’s being judgmental in a since, but it is a true statement. But, I had to deep breath, because people were just laughing and talking while Dr. Martin was trying to talk. I find that very rude. I know that it is not my place to say or do anything As the class went on, I realized that this week is going to be hectic. We were assigned a six page paper by Thursday.I know that Mondays usually go slow for me because I have a full schedule. We also had Dr. Ei’s class today. I really had to take a deep breath and meditate because she is so nice,and my fellow peers take that for granted. They talk over her, and that is plain rude. I just attempted to keep my thoughts on the positive things. Things like the summer program almost being over, and how I am beginning to mature with this whole mindfulness activity. We also had Dr. Chimi’s class today. His class was fun to me. I learned how to make my own website. It was very cool. It took my mind off things, and relaxed me. Although I dread Mondays, I only have one more left until I finally get a nice muchly needed break. I think I deserve a break. I have been working very hard over these last couple of weeks.

Parents

angelbsworld — Sun, 01 Aug 2010 01:30:38 +0000

Today my parents came to visit me. I believe that it is getting harder for them to see me grow up. They brought me my laptop, my iPod, and a few items that I needed. I hate the fact that I do not get the chance to see them everyday, but they have to realize that I am getting older. You know, as a child, my parents use to always say,” I cannot wait until you get older. We are going to be able to get the house all to ourselves.” Now that the day is here, they are taking it a little hard. I am the youngest, so they are not ready for this new life for me. I love my parents so much. I honestly do not know what I would do without them. I thank God everyday for blessing me with loving and caring parents. I know that they get lonely all the time now. I am the life of the party at home. Me not being there is like gifts not being under the Christmas tree Christmas morning. My mom tells me all the time that it feels like something is missing every time she goes home and sees that I am not there. I know that my older sibling are going to keep my parents company. Although there is no one that can replace the baby of the family, I know that they are just fine. My parents are new to this college thing. My older siblings tried it out but did not last more than a month away. One of my sisters does school online, so my parents always see her. The fact that I was the one who spent most of my free time with my parents gets to them at times. However like I said, I know that they are going to be okay. I pray every night that God will keep them safe from all hurt, harm, or danger. God willing, everything will work out just fine.

Bloomadeplhia

angelbsworld — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 19:53:11 +0000

Today, I traveled around the whole campus. I am so exhausted. It feels like I am out of energy. I did not know that downtown was so small. In Philadelphia, downtown is huge. There are tons of stores, restaurants, there are people with stands selling things, it is so much. Public transportation stations are all over downtown Philadelphia. We have busses and trolleys. I have yet to see a trolley here. Downtown Philadelphia is a main tour site. Many people come to view Love Park, the museums, and also Pennslanding. Bloomsburg’s downtown reminds me of the olden times cities. The olden cities with the horse carriges, rocky streets, and the olden cars, just like in the movies. I thought that I would not be able to adjust to Bloomsburg, however, slowly but surely, I am progressing. Although Philadelphia and Bloomsburg are the total opposites of each other, I have to be able to adjust to a different surrounding. I’m learning to go outside of the box little by little. Just weeks ago, I wanted to go home and transfer to a school closer to home. Now, I am rethinking. I am beginning to enjoy Bloomsburg. I wanted to stay around what I was born and raised in. I am at the age where I need to break away from family, and the city. Not saying that I should just forget about where I come from, but I need to become independent. All 18 years of my life, I have traveled, but I never stayed away from home by myself for more than a week. This is all new to me. Philadelphia will always be where my heart is. I know Philadelphia will be the same when I go back,with more added features. This is my time to live my life. I am learning how to make my own decisions, travel, and even be more social all by myself. Over these few weeks, I have grown to love Bloomsburg. I just have to adjust to the hills. In Philadelphia, I was use to straight pathways. I have been feeling the work in my calves since I stepped foot on campus. I know that walking is a great source of exercise, I just have to get use to it. Everyday it feels like its my first time walking up these hills that I have been walking up for about 4 weeks now. I guess Bloomsburg is my new home away from home!